Pure Indulgence (Day 4)

Last night (night 4 of indulgence) I had the most indulgent...

I'm not even sure what it was; part meditation, part relaxation, part stretching - all with no constraints on time or execution. I was lead by a book I re-discovered yesterday "Meditation Made Easy". The book stressed the idea of meditation being an indulgence not a regimented part of a routine or a should. It embraced the idea of ease into the meditation and going through several stages and enjoying each of them. So with that in mind last night I prepared the environment laying out my dense lion blanket on the ground, lighting candles, making the bed and dimming the lights, all while listening to my support call.

To backtrack I had a work day that ended at 8 PM and although I had transitioned when Sofie came home with a wonderfully indulgent work around the block with her on her pink, princess bike and eaten dinner then gone back to finish up work, the call of the red wine was strong. I was anchored by my 8 PM support call for the 100 day challenge. I am already sensing a shift of routine and my mind is reprogramming to this new routine. There are the occasional "red wine" impulses but bringing myself back to the present moment and my routine and anchoring myself quickly shifts my thinking.

After the support call I feel like I spent the next hour on the most wonderful date with myself and I didn't even get to first date. It truly felt indulgent and I think a huge part of that for me was throwing out the rule book and listening to my body and my mind without any time pressure. Like unwrapping a rich dark chocolate bar, after 15 minutes of meditation, I lay down sinking into the blanket listening to what was next from my guide, myself. I stretched in the areas and for the length of time I wanted to. It was a delicate balance of feeling completely in and out of control and it was delicious. I went from moment of "ahh this feels good" to moment of "ahh this feels really good". One of my most important core values is - to feel good - and it felt GOOD. Every now and then my mind would wonder to the future and visualize my next stage sitting on the couch with a glass of wine and I used that as I an indication that I was not done yet. By the time I was done I felt the most relaxed I have ever felt from any relaxation ever. There wear no thoughts of red wine left, I had satiated my desire for peace, calm and relaxation and it was no longer necessary. I felt like i had that wonderful, just had sex aura, around me. The kind of relaxation you get after intense and pleasurable release. I can't wait to do it again.

Afterwards I floated upstairs kissed Kirk good night and went directly to bed, still riding the wave. I have raised the bar of indulgence. What's next? I can't wait to see what unravels.