The Delicate Balance of Life

Just like the world has a delicate Eco system, so do we. I was reminded of that at 3 AM on Tuesday night. I was lay awake, my mind busy going through all the files in my mind de-fragmenting and doing maintaince like my computer. Suddenly at 3 AM it hit upon the file entitled, comfy peaceful place of pure indulgence, green couch. For those who have been following me about a six weeks ago I moved my couch into the dining room and it fell into place like the last piece of a jigsaw. I sat on it and a feeling of calmness and peace trickled though my body. That reminds me my husband bet at the time it wouldn't stay here two weeks, I need to collect on that! Anyway for two wonderful weeks I enjoyed the couch. In the evenings I lit candles and incense and sat relaxing listening to music and reading in pure indulgence on it. Then...

MY NEW LAPTOP ARRIVED!

My old laptop had lost it's ability to connect wirelessly. I had been patiently waiting it's arrival and eagerly sat on my peaceful, indulgent couch installing scrap booking factory deluxe, ACT and all the files on my external hard drive onto it. Day after day I sat, comfy legs outstretched on the indulgent couch. I sat on it and blogged my heart out, created flyer's to hand out at a fundraiser I was supporting, wrote speeches and answered emails. About a week ago I began to notice that my office had moved, now it was on the coffee table and all over the beautiful, peaceful green couch. Appalled I cleared it off, placed all the paper under the coffee table and every few nights shut off the laptop and put it under the coffee table too.

At 3AM on Tuesday night or rather Wednesday morning, to be correct, I realized I had completely violated my peaceful, calm, indulgent space. I had in essence crapped all over it and taken away it's positive power. In realizing this I began to retrace my steps and saw the effect this had rippled into the delicate balance of my life. When the tether to the desk was broken with the arrival of the new laptop all my boundaries around work hours were blown out of the water. I worked later and hit the red wine harder.

So on Wednesday I grabbed my office and relocated it to the desk in the living room next to a not so comfy and not even close to indulgent chair. I could feel the changes begin to ripple as I cleared off all the gunk on the couch. In my mind I began to set new boundaries around my laptop and the couch. Like the delicate balance of the world it will take a little time for the positive changes to take effect but I am excited to reclaim my peace, calm and pure indulgence.